It was my first time to ride a car attached to a cable and I was very excited. Yes!..... But as the car progressed on the cable, I started to feel so afraid and started to tremble as I saw the grasses and the trees below me. For a moment I was expecting to fall. I was imagining I was falling from a parachute that I saw on movies. I wondered where will I fall? Maybe on the ground with dogs. Maybe I would fall on a branch beside a snake. I wondered how would I get out of that thick forest below. Would there be someone to help me? The laughter of excitement of my two companions brought me to my reverie. I realized I was in a cage. I remained seated not moving and was trying to digest in my mind what was happening. I began to laugh at myself. I was so silly feeling so scared. I remember how excited I was before riding it. So much excited even when I was just planning to get there.
Gee! So this is how it feels to ride a cable car! It was sooo goooodd!
As I was reminescing that event a few hours later I can’t help but notice the kind of fear I felt that moment. The fear wasn’t new to me. I remember feeling like it when I heard friends my age are building their own house, getting married, getting pregnant, having their own family, buying hectars of land in preparation for their old age, buying insurances, and many more. They all seem like having a bright future and doesn’t have anything to worry about it.
And me?... When I look at myself with the “world’s” perspective, I really felt scared about my future. I don’t want to be like those people who made the wrong choices in life and led a not so happy if not miserable lives.
Oh Yes! I may not have all that friends my age have, but for me, I have the best in the world that they don’t have. A special relationship with God. This is my best treasure!
It is in this kind of relationship that I was able to know myself and God better and I became a better person. He made me see wonderful things that made me not fear about my future. One of the big things He thought me to do is to focus on love, especially loving others. I learned that the best way to loving others is to love myself first. Years back, I thought loving myself was a form of selfishness. I was wrong. I realize that it is in loving myself first that I am able to really love others. By loving myself, everything else followed.
Indeed, you can not give that which you do not have. Now I felt like I have everything that friends my age have, and even more.
He is the Alpha and the Omega, the God of my present and future and I need not fear. He knows my inner longings, dreams and aspirations. I know He wants everything good for me and desperately wants me to be happy. I believe that all that I wish for in my life will take place in His time and not in my time. I only need to trust Him because with him I know that....
I’m in good hands!
Gee! So this is how it feels to ride a cable car! It was sooo goooodd!
As I was reminescing that event a few hours later I can’t help but notice the kind of fear I felt that moment. The fear wasn’t new to me. I remember feeling like it when I heard friends my age are building their own house, getting married, getting pregnant, having their own family, buying hectars of land in preparation for their old age, buying insurances, and many more. They all seem like having a bright future and doesn’t have anything to worry about it.
And me?... When I look at myself with the “world’s” perspective, I really felt scared about my future. I don’t want to be like those people who made the wrong choices in life and led a not so happy if not miserable lives.
Oh Yes! I may not have all that friends my age have, but for me, I have the best in the world that they don’t have. A special relationship with God. This is my best treasure!
It is in this kind of relationship that I was able to know myself and God better and I became a better person. He made me see wonderful things that made me not fear about my future. One of the big things He thought me to do is to focus on love, especially loving others. I learned that the best way to loving others is to love myself first. Years back, I thought loving myself was a form of selfishness. I was wrong. I realize that it is in loving myself first that I am able to really love others. By loving myself, everything else followed.
Indeed, you can not give that which you do not have. Now I felt like I have everything that friends my age have, and even more.
He is the Alpha and the Omega, the God of my present and future and I need not fear. He knows my inner longings, dreams and aspirations. I know He wants everything good for me and desperately wants me to be happy. I believe that all that I wish for in my life will take place in His time and not in my time. I only need to trust Him because with him I know that....
I’m in good hands!
