Just recently I bought dvd tapes of Winnie the Pooh, Barney, and Dora. No, its not for my nieces, its for me. Well, of course, for them too. Our cable subscription was cut and I used to watch Dora the Explorer with them as I was fixing myself for my trip to work every morning. I really liked watching cartoons and I've been watching more of it lately.
Yeah... talk about life's issues. My back subject. Actually I have many. These are the things I missed during my childhood. Things I was deprived of. Some of it I have solved and there are still that are hidden and some started to surface only now.
I love barbie dolls. When I was a child it cost a fortune. Now it cost almost a coin.
(My exaggeration. The immitations, of course.) I mean, i can now afford it.
Recently I saw my high school classmate making Barbie cakes. I really liked it but it's awkward now to have it for me especially on my birthday. What I did was to order it for my nieces. In a way I was doing it for myself, too. It's a good thing I have more than two nieces. I have more chances of ordering another. In fact I couldn't seem to wait for the next birthday of my another niece so I can have another Barbie cake.
My first Barbie cake.
This brings to mind my past resolved issues also. I used to walk home from school. On the way, I would pass a bakery. I salivate when I see an egg pie displayed. I would save my allowance for a week so I could buy an egg pie on Friday. I then ate it secretly alone in my room.
I really wanted to eat in a restaurant but obviously I could not. This made me swear to myself that when I have a job, I will buy as much egg pies as I want and eat in all the restaurants in the city.
Yes indeed, when I had my job, I ate as much egg pies as I want, and also leche flan, until it started to trigger my ashma so I had to stop eating it. I have also eaten in all of the restaurants in the city. Every family occasions like birthdays and blow outs, I held it in a restaurant. With a strick budget, of course. Sometimes, before going there, I would tell my family what is the food already and no one should order more. Thank God there were few restaurants in our place that time. Today, there are many restaurants. Some had even closed without me visiting them.
I also love playing a keyboard. I told myself that even if I am already old when I can afford to buy one, I will still buy for my own. So my first big purchase was a portable Yamaha keyboard. It cost my first Christmas Bonus.
I wanted to have my own guitar, too. It must be a Yamaha classical guitar. It can be included in my budget but it has become my less priority. But I promised myself I will buy one before I die. Fortunately, God must have been generous enough to have contacted a Marsian and have it delivered to me.
I also wanted to treat my family for a vacation in Boracay. I really saved for that. I brought them twice. I remembered I reminding them more than once to pray the Rosary on their way. When we met in the island, they told me, they prayed so much that the van broke down and they had to wait for another van to continue their travel. But I told them, it was because they were praying so much that the malfunctioning brake of the van was safely discovered that they were saved from an accident.
Doing these things just made me happy. Really happy. I felt fulfilled and whole and healed. While I was those things and for my family, I was doing it for myself.
Now, there were times my siblings would throw me jokes like
;
"Why do you no longer treat us to a restaurant? You earn more now? When are you going to treat us to Boracay again?"
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Stop dreaming guys." I said.
"I have finished my back subjects."
"I’m on my way to my graduation day".
