"Lord, I came here to make a sacrifice and to fast. But it seems like I am not doing all these. I ate a lot, I was hungry. But I need to eat to last 'till morning. I must not sleep, but it's alright to sleep. I want to kneel longer, but it's alright to sit. I thought...." I don't know if it was a complaint or a question. But suddenly I hear God say;
"Bea, I don't need your sacrifice tonight. I want you!"
I felt my tears falling down my cheeks. Oh! how sweet really Jesus is.
This made me remember Simon who were made to carry the cross of Jesus on His way to calvary. The cross wasn't as heavy as Simon thought it to be. It was like Jesus, still, carried the cross for him. I also remember the many times when I would offer my pains to Him, the pain would become bearable and some even vanish.
Honestly, to be with God was my primary reason in attending the vigil and it was so good to know God felt the same. I missed being with God in silent. Just being with Him without praying! Well, of course, I know, just by being is already a prayer. What I mean is being with him like I used to. Just like many months or years ago. My life has been different for me now and I miss "those days and moments" with God.
I realize that those times were always there, its just in a different degree. Oh, I just can't put into words how I understood it now. But that's how it is.
We hear this phrase "Jesus is the same, today and tomorrow." And yes indeed!
I guess all I lack is time. Enough time to frequent God's presence.
What a better place to be than in a prayer vigil.
Feeling God's presence in everyone. Being with God as I am, with all my flaws, understanding each others behavior at the moment.
I was at the vigil of the Alliance of Two Hearts Movement. The two hearts refers to the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary.The vigil culminates in the First Friday and ends in the First Saturday of the month. It is an all-night reparation vigil offered in atonement for the sins of mankind grievously offending the Sacred Heart of Jesus and the Immaculate Heart of Mary.
The Alliance of Two Hearts - Communion of Reparation is the Catholic world's response to the urgent request to make "reparations" to the Hearts of Jesus and Mary, particularly in today's society where the "culture of death," destruction of the family and the outrages and sacrileges committed against the Holy Trinity and Blessed Mother are rampant.
God really pampers us. Imagine, He would send Mama Mary to us to teach us what to pray to Him to appease Him.
Because of His great love for us, He even sent His son. Only because He want all of us to be saved.
In this lenten season, may we all be able to take time to reflect on this great love and in our little way, be able to give this love back to God.
Let us help God in His mission to save all to heaven.
